by which to protect ourselves and keep our power. And that works, when we’re dealing with people who don’t matter to us. But then you’re drawn to someone without fully knowing why, or from where and all of a sudden nothing written makes sense, rules scattered on the floor. Let’s play together your heart whispers, and write our own rules. We won’t tell anyone that we’ve already won.
So no, to answer your question, I didn’t think this would happen. But I did hope, from a secret place, that it might. That you might want to kiss me, or hold my hand. That your gaze might stop and you might think, “god she’s beautiful” and we’d take it from there.
The reality of course was messier
as I fumbled through the rules
until they failed me one by one
and I could make sense of nothing but your hands
could find no power but in your taste
could abide by no creed
when the rest of me
is down (Sam Smith)
There are those people. An attraction that makes it clear, that no heaven could exist more divine than the world we live in now.
A whole, more than the sum of its parts.
Oh there you are! Don’t you know I’ve been looking for you all my life? There’s a party we must attend and ev-ery-one is waiting, so let’s go.
and time, which is all we have, must be paid heavily for their acquiring.”
- Ernest Hemingway, Death in the Afternoon
Abundance of wealth, of new experiences, of soul. I think to myself, what is it you wish for in this one precious life? Is it money, power, fame? Maybe, and that’s grand, but if you strip it all down, it all starts and ends with love.”
excerpt from toast at my friend Kate Reid’s wedding to Matthew Vacca, 5.30.2014